February Femmes Fatales -
February 18th
This second piece of prose from
Asuqi perfectly demonstrates her art. She has a unique attitude, studded with astute observation and delivery.
Betrayed thunders through the subject of abuse, at the heart of which is a little Alice lost and ever on the escape yet trapped by affection and loyalty.
For me there's a 1950s feel to
Betrayed with deliberate exclamations to contradict the tragedy; unnerving as Sylvia Plath poetry.
Enter the maze; may you follow your own path...
Betrayed by Asuqi
This is a confined space, too narrow to live in or like, but it’s what I’ve got left and in a way, I suppose it suits me.
I lost myself in a labyrinth, the pretty one, in our vast garden. My sisters were snatched away from our lovely childhood by a monster too abhorrent to speak of. Me, I chose the maze.
Try chasing me here! Try finding me! I’m lost, I’m lost, impossible to find!
I spent these long years ensuring the labyrinth’s utter complexity. I recreated the paths, reorganized the hedges. I made a science of intricacy.
I sometimes see my sisters cry, the monster’s shadow heavy on their chests. I turn to lightness then, bend myself backwards and spiral away – I only dance abstract pieces.
The laces I’m wrapped in are my mother’s from a lifetime ago, I think the monster wanted me in them, but I can’t discard them, freedom is not mine to take.
Oh my God! He came for me! Last night in my dreams! Soft brown eyes, wine-scented kisses and his treacherous hands fumbling under my layers of lace.
My heart and my thoughts fluttered endlessly then, like the delicate membranes of a butterfly.
"Someone ought to have saved you," you say, your eyes a glacial sincerity. "Someone should have come for you!"
But there’s no one left, you see! And the softness in my eyes is as brown as his. We’re two of a kind, and this is what holds me secured more than anything; his body so close to mine, our minds entwined, the horrors he performed - are they the tales of my soul?
So I stay here, trapped, between him and myself. If you hear me scream, please go away, if I plead just leave! I´m ruined beyond salvation and if you come from a place of light, your heart pure and sweet, just forget about me, for I will turn my face to you, and I cannot promise my smile won´t be his.
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Bio:
Please accept me as Asuqi. On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero. So I go about searching for near-life experiences. I know them when they hit me, they tickle my brain. I only have questions, I am Jack's complete lack of certainty. Yes; "Fight Club". Always.
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